I need goals, rules, and guidelines in poker or I just don't stay disciplined, my biggest weakness. Being 19 and having way too much $ will do that to most anyone I think. Therefore I'm coming up with a plan I'm gonna stick to till I hit $100,000. Tonight I cashed out all but 3,500.This is an aggressive plan, but I need a challenge and I think I can do this and think it will make me better. I have been grinding 3/6 for way too long.I'm starting at 1/2. Once I hit the BR mark I will move to stated level...4k -> 2/46k -> 3/610k -> 5/1025k -> 10/2060k -> 25/50If I drop down below the BR mark for that level, I will move back down till I get it back.I'll play alot of HU cash probably, but also 6max. I'm gonna try to really concentrate when I play, and play no more than 5 tables at a time. I of course will allow myself to play lower limits than my bankroll suggests if huge fish are there, like playing 3/6 with 20k, but I really don't plan on it. The best players suggest being aggressive with your bankroll, and playing tough opponents and finding ways to beat them is necessary. I am sick of relying on fish at lower levels.For HU sng's I'm using the 30 buy in rule but I doubt I'll play very many.If I happen to play tournaments, they won't count towards this, I will probably only play the Sunday's anyway.I have no clue how long this will take, lately I haven't had that much time for poker. I am going to cash out during this process too, to keep putting $ into stocks, but I will count the $ i cash out towards being part of my bankroll even if it's not online since if I really need to, I can get it there anyway.
I'm not gonna be updating here much more, because I'm updating my progress each day on www.talkingpoker.com
Friday, February 16, 2007
Saturday, February 10, 2007
2 breaks
i have been taking a break from poker since tuesday b/c i dont hardly have time for it unless i stay up late, and its messin up school. right now i want to get on the right track with school, poker comes last. I might play the Sunday tournies tomorrow if nothing is going on.
The bigger and more interesting Break im on tho is with my GF. lately ive really been meeting alot of other awesome girls and maybe getting greedy about wanting them, i dn, but really, for alot of people college is the time they meet their future wives. While I can see myself marrying Denise, I've been with her almost 3 years so really I dn what else is out there in a way. I just want to be able to get with and date other girls without feeling bad. I still like denise alot and feel bad cuz she really took it harder than i thought she would, and thinks the break is stupid. After 2 days of fighting tho and me getting alot of crying phone calls we're totally fine now. She understands where I'm coming from and I understand where she is, but still I think I need the break. I'm thinking after a month of so if we still want to be together, like we probably will, I'm gonna just start "dating" her instead of "going out" with her. I talked to her about it already and it's hilarious how if i call it dating she thinks it's fine if I get with other girls. Of course this allows her to get with other guys too, but hopefully she won't too much, and I doubt she will.
I did try getting with Denise while we were on a break, I really thought it would work. I have a class with her and ever since we broke up she's been trying to impress; tanning, wearing cute little clothes, being extra flirty. So when I finally decided to go to her place I thought I pretty much had it in the bag. We start making out and I'm like wow I'm a genius for diong this, then she stops and pulls the stupidass "I don't know if this is right, you can't have your cake and eat it too." I kiddingly tell her to "give into her emotions" but she isnt the slutty type at all which is good, but she said she needed a commitment for me to be doing stuff with her.
Anyway I think this break is def. good for me even tho some girls have called me a whore for it. I don't see it that way, I just want to be able to get to know other girls better, and actually most my girl friends and guy friends agree with me even tho some make me feel bad when they say any guy would want her and crap, which is basically true. Hopefully I can start seeing this one girl thats amazing in one of my classes, she already has a bf tho so it will be a challenge. we will see
The bigger and more interesting Break im on tho is with my GF. lately ive really been meeting alot of other awesome girls and maybe getting greedy about wanting them, i dn, but really, for alot of people college is the time they meet their future wives. While I can see myself marrying Denise, I've been with her almost 3 years so really I dn what else is out there in a way. I just want to be able to get with and date other girls without feeling bad. I still like denise alot and feel bad cuz she really took it harder than i thought she would, and thinks the break is stupid. After 2 days of fighting tho and me getting alot of crying phone calls we're totally fine now. She understands where I'm coming from and I understand where she is, but still I think I need the break. I'm thinking after a month of so if we still want to be together, like we probably will, I'm gonna just start "dating" her instead of "going out" with her. I talked to her about it already and it's hilarious how if i call it dating she thinks it's fine if I get with other girls. Of course this allows her to get with other guys too, but hopefully she won't too much, and I doubt she will.
I did try getting with Denise while we were on a break, I really thought it would work. I have a class with her and ever since we broke up she's been trying to impress; tanning, wearing cute little clothes, being extra flirty. So when I finally decided to go to her place I thought I pretty much had it in the bag. We start making out and I'm like wow I'm a genius for diong this, then she stops and pulls the stupidass "I don't know if this is right, you can't have your cake and eat it too." I kiddingly tell her to "give into her emotions" but she isnt the slutty type at all which is good, but she said she needed a commitment for me to be doing stuff with her.
Anyway I think this break is def. good for me even tho some girls have called me a whore for it. I don't see it that way, I just want to be able to get to know other girls better, and actually most my girl friends and guy friends agree with me even tho some make me feel bad when they say any guy would want her and crap, which is basically true. Hopefully I can start seeing this one girl thats amazing in one of my classes, she already has a bf tho so it will be a challenge. we will see
Wednesday, February 7, 2007
update
k i just got home its 3 am im pretty drunk still but i think this post will make good sense anyway. i decided tonight im not gonna play poker for a week. i need to concentrate on school, and i now realize how much more important friends are. Ive made Alot of new ones this semester and ive been goin out alot and honestly i just dont have time for poker right now plus i think i will find new and more productive things with to do. I have a postive bb/100 right now but a negative $ total of 10k b/c i lost a 13k pot with KK vs ATo on a 249 flop vs. fuckin Elky's bitch ass.
also, i broke up with my gf 4 days ago. she really wants to get back together. i feel ridiculously bad and shes taking it way worse than i thought. I REALLY need a break tho, we both were taking each other for granted way tooooo much. i KNOW this will be good for me cuz i have a few other girls in mind, one in particular, and i hope she becomes a little more independent. I guess u could say were on a break cuz i Really think we might get back together eventually but i know i HAVE to date other girls and at least see wut else is out there. some of my friends agree, most guy friends call me an idiot cuz they say shes so hot. i still never told her i cheated on her, really hope she doesnt find out. i dont think she wiill. i was tempted today to ask her back out when i saw her, she of course tried and planned to look extra good to make me jealous and it worked in a way. Honestly pretty much any guy would love to go out with her, so sometimes i wonder who i think i am to break up with her, and a few guys have told me, joe wtf are u thinking, every guy wants her, u are just too used to having her. really im just confused and dn wut the fuck i want right now besides other cute girls however bad that sounds. trust me out of 30k kids at mizzou there are PLENTY of beautifull girls. anyway i think this break will be good for me and make mre realize a few things, then maybe ill realizre im better w/o her, maybe ill realize i was taking her for granted and want her back for good- which i could really see happening. shes awesome. shes told me she wants to marry me,. and in a message today she told me "unlike her, she doesnt think she'll ever find any1 better than me, but apparently i do" although its mean she makes me feel good. she loved me more than i even knew and i feel terrible when she cries to me but i just have to stick with it for now. 3 weeks at Least, and i told her that, and in general shes been sad but real cool about it. shes an awesome girl.
wow sry if that went on forever im still pretty damn drunk tho im not gonna lie it took me like 9 times to remoember my password to get on to here.
also, i broke up with my gf 4 days ago. she really wants to get back together. i feel ridiculously bad and shes taking it way worse than i thought. I REALLY need a break tho, we both were taking each other for granted way tooooo much. i KNOW this will be good for me cuz i have a few other girls in mind, one in particular, and i hope she becomes a little more independent. I guess u could say were on a break cuz i Really think we might get back together eventually but i know i HAVE to date other girls and at least see wut else is out there. some of my friends agree, most guy friends call me an idiot cuz they say shes so hot. i still never told her i cheated on her, really hope she doesnt find out. i dont think she wiill. i was tempted today to ask her back out when i saw her, she of course tried and planned to look extra good to make me jealous and it worked in a way. Honestly pretty much any guy would love to go out with her, so sometimes i wonder who i think i am to break up with her, and a few guys have told me, joe wtf are u thinking, every guy wants her, u are just too used to having her. really im just confused and dn wut the fuck i want right now besides other cute girls however bad that sounds. trust me out of 30k kids at mizzou there are PLENTY of beautifull girls. anyway i think this break will be good for me and make mre realize a few things, then maybe ill realizre im better w/o her, maybe ill realize i was taking her for granted and want her back for good- which i could really see happening. shes awesome. shes told me she wants to marry me,. and in a message today she told me "unlike her, she doesnt think she'll ever find any1 better than me, but apparently i do" although its mean she makes me feel good. she loved me more than i even knew and i feel terrible when she cries to me but i just have to stick with it for now. 3 weeks at Least, and i told her that, and in general shes been sad but real cool about it. shes an awesome girl.
wow sry if that went on forever im still pretty damn drunk tho im not gonna lie it took me like 9 times to remoember my password to get on to here.
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